Dear Cameron,
This is the first of what I hope is many letters to you throughout your lifetime. I want you to look back and always know how very much I love you and how I loved you from the first day I found out you existed.
Today you turn three months old. You will only know how fast time flies when you have your own babies. On one hand it seems like just yesterday that I held you in my arms for the very first time and looked at your perfect little face and knew that I would fiercely love you until the day that I die. At the same time, you have become such an integral part of our lives that we cannot imagine our lives without you.
The last three months have been such a wonderful and magnificent adventure. You have given me the best gift that anyone has ever given me or will ever be able to give me: you have made me a mother and that will be something that you will be able to hold onto for the rest of your life. I will always be grateful to you for giving me this wonderful gift.
Cameron, when I found out I was pregnant with you, my life changed. I remember feeling fear at first, because I knew my life would never be the same. But fear is not necessarily a bad thing, because you were so deeply wanted by both your Daddy and me. We excitedly awaited your arrival. We watched you grow in my belly. We stared at you for hours at our ultrasound appointments. We talked daily about all the developments that you were going through as you grew.
Finally, you were ready to enter this world. Cameron, I loved you when you were inside of me, but I had no idea how that love would grow exponentially when you were born. As a new Mommy, I didn’t know what my life would be like with a newborn. It was scary. Would I be able to care for you the way you needed to be cared for? Would I be a good Mommy? But you have made my job as a Mommy so easy. It has been the best thing in the world having you in our family. I love every day with you. I even sometimes sit and watch your precious little face cry, because I seriously have never seen anything as cute as you.
You have grown and changed so much since you were born. Everyone tells me to cherish each moment with you because you will grow up so quickly – and you do. But it is also so exciting to watch you learn and grow.
Cameron, I remember when you started to be interested in your surroundings. You were only a couple weeks old. I was changing your diaper and there was a green frog sitting beside you that your Great-Great-Aunt Laura gave to you. You were so facinated by the frog. Soon after this, you began to want to hold your head on your own. It took a few weeks, but eventually you were holding it up with no help from us whatsoever. If we tried, you would just move your head away. You are so independant and anxious to learn. Speaking of which, we also can tell that you can’t wait to get moving. From about one month on, you have loved to put your weight on your feet. We will balance you, but you will be supporting your weight on your own. You love that. And you love to jump. Your legs start pumping up and down and we know you’re ready for a good bouncing. Mommy and Daddy get such pleasure out of helping you jump, even when our arms get tired because we know you love it. We are so proud of you for all you have learned and accomplished so far.
Cameron, when you were one month, one day old, you started smiling. Let me tell you, I have never seen anything so beautiful in my entire life. You light up a room with that smile and make so many people so happy. Sometimes, when I know Daddy has had a hard time at work, I make sure that he sees you as soon as he gets home so that you can lift his spirits.
You smile the most first thing in the morning. What a wonderful way to start the day! Even when Mommy is exhausted, you make waking up worth it. You also love getting your diaper changed. I don’t think you necessarily care about being clean but you love the face time you get. When your diaper is being changed you have my undivided attention. You always smile, and sometimes you talk. In fact, sometimes you’re a downright loudmouth (and it is oh-so-precious!). You coo and make all sorts of noises (you’re a particular fan of “Goo”). My favorite is when you say “Mummmm”. If you want something, you rarely resort to crying right away. Instead, you make sure you are heard by giving a few short yells. It is amazing to me how much you communicate even though you don’t know words yet. It is simply astonishing how such a new and little being can be so complex.
Sometimes you’re a little shy. You like to give everyone lots of smiles, but sometimes you smile and then hide your face in Mommy or Daddy. Then you give a little peek back and smile again, only to hide your face once more. Maybe you’re just overcome with happiness and need a little break before taking in more of the wonderful world around you!
On Friday, you laughed. It was a real giggle and it just melted my heart. Before then (and since) you laugh by smiling gleefully and saying “AHHH”. But on Friday, I was taking your arms out of your sleeper and you were loving it. You were AHHHing and AHHHing, and soon they shorted and became a few giggles. It was so exciting! I can’t wait until you’re laughing and giggling up a storm every time Mommy and Daddy play “This Little Piggy” or swing you in the air or make funny noises.
Cameron, your Mommy and your Daddy love you with more love than they knew was possible. You have made our lives so wonderful and we have loved spending these past three months with you. We will continue to love you and play with you and celebrate with you as you grow and learn and take in everything that this world has to offer you.
Cameron, I hope that you always feel as comfortable and as safe and as happy with us as you do now. I hope you know that our love for you will never diminish and that we will always be a safe place for you to come home to and that there will always be open arms ready to hold you. You are our son – our first son. We are proud of you today and we will continue to be proud of you!
Happy three month birthday Cameron! I love you with all of my being!
Love forever and for always,
Mommy
