So, how did all this happen to bring me to this point: 10 weeks and 4 days pregnant, hearing a baby’s heartbeat for the first time? Well, I could start at the very beginning (a very good place to start)… but this isn’t really that type of blog, is it?
I won’t lie. I’ve been known to take the occasional at home pregnancy test in the past. I was always a little too paranoid, but I never ever really expected to see a positive. However, seeing a negative isn’t the best feeling in the world either, even though I knew we were not planning or trying for a baby because it wasn’t the best time yet. My mentality was the same six and a half weeks ago when I came home from work and reached under the bathroom sink for a pregnancy test. I expected to see one more negative. The only reason I was even taking this test was because my husband had been saying for over a week that he was so sure I was pregnant.
It took a few minutes to get a result, however I wasn’t that stressed out about it. I mean, I already knew it would be negative, so why did I need to worry? And then, a second line started to emerge. A second line – wait… I’ve never seen a second line before. That’s not the negative test I was expecting to see. So, if the test is not negative, then it means that I am…. Oh $#!+ !!!!
I have never felt more terrified in my life! Not only did I not expect to be pregnant, but I certainly never expected to feel so frightened when ever I eventually did become pregnant. But, this is a life changing experience that rocks your world! I was shaking!
Okay, I thought. First things first. I’ve gotta HIDE THIS TEST!!! You see, Dan was coming home from work, but I had to go BACK to work, possibly before I would even see him! I certainly did not want him to find the positive pregnancy test without me there. I searched high and low for the perfect place. Under my alarm clock. Now, I just had to wait the last 45 minutes until I had to go back to work. I sat at the computer and looked up pregnancy. What else was I supposed to do?
Luckily, Dan came home early, about 20 minutes before I had to go to work. “How was your day?” he asks. “Uh fine…” Oh gosh – how am I ever going to tell him? Many people spend time making this opportunity as sweet and romantic as possible. But I had no time!
He starts asking me about what gifts we were giving each other for our upcoming anniversary. “I have an early gift for you” I say. “Close your eyes”. He closes his eyes. I run to my secret hiding place (under the alarm clock) and grab the test and thrust it in his open hands. “Don’t freak out” I emphasize. He takes a look. “Really?” I start to cry. “Really”. Then he smiles real big! His excitement made me realize that everything was going to be okay and that we were going to have a baby! From that point on, the excitement and happiness has only continued to grow!
Words of Wisdom: Never, EVER take a pregnancy test between shifts at work or right before you have to go to work. This is the STUPIDEST thing you could ever do! Trust me!
