The holidays have never really been a particularly stressful time for me. Sure, I worried about finding that perfect gift for my sisters, my parents, and Dan. I worried about when I would get off work so I could go home to New Brunswick and I hoped the weather would cooperate with my plans. But otherwise, I tried to avoid getting caught up in trying to do all those quinessential Christmas activities.
Holiday baking? Sounds delicious. I’ll do it if I have time.
Christmas decorationg? Nice idea. I’ll decorate a bit, but we’re not even going to be around for Christmas so it isn’t a big deal.
It isn’t that I’m a Christmas grinch. Far from it. I am full of Christmas spirit. But I’ve always loved Christmas and didn’t want to ruin it by trying to make it perfect. Before, I didn’t need perfection. I’d just go home and get my perfect Christmas there.
But this year I’m not going home for Christmas. And this year I have a child. That makes this Christmas very different.
Because we decided to go to Toronto early this December, our Christmas activities and preparations were all crammed into only two weeks. And that made this holiday season busy. And stressful.
Now that we’re finally here and officially “on holiday” (I’m not sure what that means for a stay-at-home mom) I’m trying to get get caught up on some personal activities that have been pushed aside during the busyness of the season – things like reading and blogging.
I unpacked my laptop to start typing out a blog. I reached for the laptop charger since my battery is already only at 30%. All of a sudden I realized that I only have half of the charging chord. All of a sudden I am hit with a sinking feeling.
I am stuck in a house with no computer or Internet and without my own personal computer for the next three weeks.
It is weird how much I rely on my computer(s). When I realized that I did’t have my computer I felt all of my creative energy (that has been pent up for a while already during the busyness of the holidays) wimper and fizzle. I realized I would not be able to blog, I would not be able to upload or edit any of my photography, I would not be able to access ebooks as they become available for me at the library, and I will not be able to be productive with any of the work I should be doing.
I managed to find a blogging app on my iPhone 2G that was on sale and was favourably reviewed to do some blogging. It is slow going (I had to charge the phone once in the middle of typing) but at least it is something. And I can hold onto some semblance of normalcy as I know that my in-laws are actually getting a computer and the Internet this week (it is about time).
This blog post is kind of pointless and not very focussed but let it be a kind of update of sorts. Things are a little weird right now and I’m just trying to roll with it.
Sometimes I feel that way too, Cameron.
Photo taken today.
9 months, 6 days old
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