As my belly has grown larger and my pregnant days continue to tick off, gravity seems to be my worst enemy.
Everything seems heavier. I have never been so conscious of the natural phenomenon that attracts my body to the center of the earth as when I am pregnant. I have never been more aware of my mass. I stand up and I feel the pressure. I turn around in bed and I feel the pull. The pain I feel can usually be completely attributed to this gravitational power. I am constantly aware of this force acting upon me.
Somehow gravity isn’t always physical. As the earth continues to pull my body towards its center at an increasing rate, so too do I feel weight piling on top of me. Sometimes it feels overwhelming. Other times it is exhausting. And sometimes it is smothering. The realities of life compiled with the guilt of motherhood and the tasks that fill up my day sometimes just feel like too much, especially as my body is calling me to slow down and prepare for birth.
Lately, I have been feeling the effects of gravity. And gravity has been too strong.
But there are stronger forces than gravity.
The force of a friend who calls me in the morning to let me know she has scheduled a pedicure for me later in the day.
The force of a family who play with my son while I sit and listen to him laugh; who take me out of the exhausting routine of my normal life and give me a moment to do something else, to talk with someone else.
The force of a husband who patiently watches our son while I leave the house to get my toes done or to grab a coffee; who makes lunch after I get home from a walk and cleans up afterwards.
Such simple blessings. Things that aren’t on any to-do list. But these things refresh me. They renew me. They lift the weight of gravity from my shoulders, and somehow, even with everything still on my plate, I feel lighter.
I feel lighter.
I am glad that you have people coming around you as you wait.
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Me too! It has been such a blessing!
Laura recently posted..Ambiguity
One word: bathtub. I was amazed at how I felt the heaviness increase the other day as the water drained! Glad you’re feeling cared for and loved as you wait!
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You have some of the BEST ideas. I totally took a cool, hour-long bath last night and it was awesome. I made sure to schedule it into my night, and even though it happened much later than I wanted, it happened, and I needed it! :)
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Being looked after now is not just wonderful, it’s fundamental. Almost there, Laura.
It is fundamental! I hope you’re being looked after too!
Laura recently posted..Ambiguity
YAY for a pedi! That is one of my favorite things to do if I have time by myself and can go with a friend. So relaxing! And this post was beautifully written!
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Thank you so much! I loved writing it.
I hope you get some pedis in this pregnancy! :)
Laura recently posted..Ambiguity
I am so glad you have people to help ease the burden a bit these past few days. And yay for the pedicure!!
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Was it you who suggested a pedicure in one of my last posts? I couldn’t believe how someone would just call me up one morning and tell me she had scheduled an appointment for me to have one! I am still overwhelmed with gratitude! Pedicures are one of those luxury things that don’t hang out near the top of my priority list, so it was just so lovely to have one! :) Friends and family are seriously great! :)
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I’m still waiting, too. Hang in there mama! I’m glad to hear you’re being taken care of.
Sigh. This waiting isn’t easy, is it? I hope you’re being taken care of too, especially now that you are done your school work! Time to relax and rest before the baby shows up! :)
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