I don’t know how to rectify this feelingI’m feeling. This numbness. This emptiness. Empty. Even thoughI didn’t know you for very long. You were a part of me.Are a part of me. A part of this family. AndWe loved you.Love you.We had big plans for you.For us. Huge dreams for such an insubstantial being.Still so…
Pregnancy
Big Steps
Since becoming a Mom, some things have kind of changed. I’m sure people know showers as the quick burst of freshness at the beginning of an early morning to awaken the senses. Others know showers as a long, warm and luxurious quiet time to cleanse and refresh. In fact, before I e-read (and had a…
Shared Anger
When I was a child, I would get defiantly upset at being subjected to my parent’s discipline. “When I’m a parent, I am going to let my kids do whatever they want!“ I yelled at my Mom and Dad, hoping that they would see the errors in their ways and realize that I, as a seven year old…
Thinner Thursday: Body Love
As a pre-teen, I remember feeling like my belly wasn’t flat enough. “Don’t worry about that”, my best friend told me “soon you’ll have boobs and then you’re belly will look way flatter in comparison”. It was a nice thought, but despite developing, I still felt like I could be prettier… skinnier. Now, I wasn’t a…
101 in 1001
This is my 101st blog post. That’s pretty incredible. I started this blog in the second trimester of pregnancy. I wanted to write about my experience with pregnancy and keep people updated on my life. I didn’t get into the swing of blogging until Cameron was a couple of months old, but since then, I’ve…
This Sucks
This is the worst night ever. My baby is crying. He is clean. He is fed. He is safe. But he is still screaming. The hardest part of both parenthood and motherhood (don’t know the difference? There is one, believe me) is this sleep thing. Not sleeping starts during pregnancy. It is laughable how much…
The Many Names of Cam: Baby-O
I always think it is really cute when pregnant Moms and their husbands come up with cutesy little names for their little growing nubbin. Names like Peanut and Bean and Bug and everything else that is little and cute. But when I got pregnant? Nothing sounded right. I knew other pregnant Moms with their own little Peanuts and Beans,…
Dangerous Mommying
When I really stop to think about how long it has been since I have had a full night’s sleep, it gets overwhelming. Honestly? I can’t remember how long it has been. The answer isn’t simply 6 months, 1 week and 2 days, because, let’s be honest, sleeping gets much harder the further into pregnancy…
Mommy’s Dress-Up Doll
Right from the very beginning of my pregnancy, my husband was certain that we were having a boy. I wasn’t so sure. In fact, every time I pictured myself with a baby, I pictured a little girl baby. You see, I have two sisters. Everyone in my family is a woman except for my Dad….
Mommy Pictures: Mommy of One (For Now)
So, I’m not pregnant. WHAT?! Okay, I am not trying to get pregnant, nor did I really think I was pregnant. But I did pee on a stick yesterday. You see, a post-pregnant body goes through some major changes. And sometimes, these changes are confusing and I, for one, am sometimes confused as to what…
Tweet Little Baby
Well, I’ve been a mom now for 6 weeks and 5 days. I am the happiest I have been in years because I am so in love with my little guy. I love being a mom. That being said, it is really hard to find time to myself so this blog has been neglected. I’m…
